Tears That Won't Fall

I feel so many things
In my heart now.
I can't deal with them,
I don't know how.
I feel so many
Things at once
I feel great at times
And others, like a dunce.
Why can't I cry
When I feel like,
I want to die?
Or when I want
To show emotion
And let it flow like
Water from the ocean?
I want to go one way
And then another.
And sometimes ask
Why do I bother
To go either way?
Through my day
I want to live
And always to give
Love to others
To my sisters and brothers.
But I often feel
as though
I have to hide
What I want to show.
I want people to know
Just what I'm feeling.
But when I do I
Feel like I'm stealing
Their joy
Oh boy.
What do I do?
Why can't I just be
The person God sees?
A man who is strong
Bold and courageous,
Live life on the edge
And likes to be dangerous.

Does anyone really understand
What I can't comprehend?
I give this all to you God
As I know I ought.
You have all my tears
That won't fall.
And your ears
Always hear my call.
You have all of me,
Isn't that all I need?

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